Processing Pain ...

As humans we want to put rhyme and reason into our experience of existence

for we are made thinking and feeling beings, and to think there is no reason, well this is absurd and unreasonable...

But when pain enters the scenario and particularly your own dear one's excruciating pain that will not go away day after day week after week then all  wise words of connection to the Divine are challenged, you are left with an emptiness, confusion and overwhelm...

You may find yourself despising your words of wisdom, even the words of poets and mystics which once soothed now may take on a hollow tone.

I keep clutching at my thoughts in desperation for the reason, they tell me it is all part of the universal unfolding, for lesson learning, my edification.

 I tell you I haven't got it yet! And, I must carry on along the path for I have no choice...

But still I cannot deny the 'awesome' in everyday, the million facets of beauty sparkling out from all directions of heaven and earth, bombarding my senses, shouting out the reason beyond reason, evident in the depth and breadth of love, the gifts galore in creation and kind hearts ~ I am forever grateful.