Happy to be on the other side!!
It is raining this morning but that's absolutely fine, for I am reveling in the feeling of peace...
This has emerged a few times over the last year or so and strikes me deep, feelings of just being
in the ordinary moments that are sheer bliss in the absence of stressful situations, I luxuriate here...
And the dismantling is already happening, the flickering reindeer lights started to fall off a day or two ago,
I begin to pack away the remainder and the memories a little at a time, no need to hurry, all's well...
My love washes dishes as I type, Chill radio plays the familiar, beautiful, mellow cello, I feel at home,
the pulse of life back to normal, that is my feeling of equilibrium ~>
"a state in which opposing forces or influences are balanced.
"the task is the maintenance of social equilibrium""
'Social equilibrium' the thing to be aimed for and yet each year Christmas feels farfrom this for me, all the expectations of the season weigh so heavy on me,
my nature is quite introverted, social gathering always amount to the
same thing, feelings of confusion, overwhelm and so on...
Each year I promise myself next year will be different.
So I suppose my new year's intention is to make it so, to be brave,
to be honest with myself, and look to where I need to make changes,
to action my intentions not just with Christmas but every other intuitive nudge.
For now I am just being in this space, waiting for those gentle nudges, readying myself for the ~> ACTION!