I have yet to master the art of feeling all is okay whilst suffering pain!
However I feel sheer pleasure, 'my cup runneth over' feeling in the absence of pain.
Perhaps I haven't traveled far enough down the road to enlightenment,
or sat long enough on my meditation cushion,
or said my thousandth hail Mary
to be okay with pain.
What pain has taught me is
to Be with pain,
to Be with those who suffer pain too,
to feel their pain like it's my own,
to let my heart soften towards their painful moments
not to take it away, but to say there there, I'm here for you,
I'm here for you in your moments of 'not okay',
we can feel the pain together, it's okay!
Yearning clear blue skies
to brighten the road for ease,
to step light of heart...
is warrior woman's path
she must tread alone,
her only companion Om
lifts a weighted heart...
feeling vibrational warmth,
she lights momentum...
My heart is weighed down at the moment, we are waiting for scan results,
my love has been in constant debilitating pain since before Christmas,
I'm having a nasty IBS flare-up, I'm doing warrior woman work!
I am grateful for this Friday morning ritual ~ Haiku my Heart,
it is a wonderful distraction from the everyday, focusing on
and fitting feelings into 575 syllables...
At the moment I'm feeling a bit stuck,
groping about in the dark, can't wait for daylight to see.
I'm on a journey but can't quite make out where the next stop off is...
I want my view to be clear and colourful,
with lots of beauty and inspiration so I can see clearly where I am going,
which turn off to take, but the truth of the matter is things are a little obscure and monochrome...
But, I have learned by now to look for beauty here too in the flat monochrome, to rest awhile with what is. I've come to realize and appreciate we need these quite times, it's like the scripture says ~ "there is a season for everything under the sun". Perhaps that is why I am so in-tune with trees in their winter state, their season for repose.
I know their sap will begin to rise soon, if not already, and then whoosh!
Away we will all go, bursting forth with the colours of life!
For now, they remain stripped back to their essential winter state.
Something deep within me clings to these bare open arms, these silhouettes...
I had a dream about the trees ~
I was stationed all alone and before my eyes a huge tree appeared,
surrounded by smaller trees, the trees formed a copse with the huge tree transmitting light.
Lighting the ground where I stood, I marveled at the tree emitting the light and felt an affinity with it... All of a sudden the tree copse and the light lifted and transported itself to a distant place. I was alarmed for I wanted to be in the company of the trees and remain within the beautiful light. I called to the huge tree from a distance and asked that they return to me. Immediately the tree copse uprooted again and came back, but they didn't come so close, a little way away but within reach with a little effort! After recalling my dream I thought about the science fiction film Avatar, which featured a huge sacred tree that sustained both physically and spiritually the indigenousNa'vis from the Planet Pandora. How the sacred tree rejuvenated the Na'vis who slept under it's bows with their tails plugged into the earth where the tree roots were and how this replenished them throughout the night.
My Tree Dream Interpretation ~
My tree represents Source and spiritual light, a gift.
I may plug into Source
through my Divine connection for sustenance.
Sometimes Source seems to be far away,
I feel not plugged in.
I have to reach out for the light,
but when I reach out,
call out, there is a response.
So I make the effort to reach the light
trusting Source for strength and sustenance...
Of course Source is always there, it's just the way it seems...