Finding my Bliss

Friday, 3 July 2015

Going Home

As one good friend said about grieving, it's a time of "going within"
and that's where I've been within my shell, waiting for things
to naturally find their place, for my psyche to re-arrange.,
and now it's time to continue my story...

Today I am, as another good friend put it"tying up loose ends",
sifting and sorting getting ready for my new life...
The government have promised to buy my property after a year of negotiation
as they propose to build a new high speed train line just 100 yards from my front door!
They, like the rest of 'officialdom ' are taking their time and I am at the last hurdle,
learning much patience from this whole tortuous experience.
For one year to-date I have had to plow through many obstacles
during what must be the most painful time of grieving anyone can go through,
that of losing my life long partner! But as my love used to say
"it's an "ill wind that serves nobody any good" and,
actually it has been good for me in a strange kind of way, it has been a distraction albeit forced.
The fact I have 2 acres of land to tend as well as maintain the property in order for
the government to buy it has kept me physically busy on days when
I would rather stay put and just sit, and sit, wondering
what the hell is it all about?!!

Today I am waiting for the go-ahead and I am working in sweltering heat,
something we're not used to here in the UK, so I am glad for the rest on these keys.
I feel the need to return to this online space is an evidence I am returning to normal, or
as I said previously a 'new normal for me so I am documenting my journey.
I am recording the last days here at our beloved cottage not only for the memory
but for the wonderful way writing serves to satisfy something deep within the soul,
for the last five and a half years of documenting my life online
has been a source of great joy and of course
the feed back from other soul sisters
has been such a beautiful thing,
so it is natural that I continue my story here,
I feel like I am going home...

thoughts of going home
sparkling, like the morning dew
that light keeps shining.. 

This video is one inspirational work of art....

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Haiku my Heart
Recuerda mi Corazon