Subtly in slight
hardly noticeable
increments
shadows recede
colours emerge and intensify
and slowly, slowly the details of life come back into focus.
My lovely daughter has started to see a little colour return to her life after months,
nearly a year of living in darkness, since her major mental health breakdown occurred.
Charlotte is not out of the woods, she's not ready to focus
on the finer detail of life yet but signs of returning to
normality are appearing.
The days and months were distressing for all of us seeing no change,
watching helplessly as no medicine nor motivational urging made any difference.
Each day was the same just the silence and the shaking......
I repeatedly told her she would get better,
sometimes I thought I was making this statement
as much to convince myself,
she hardly ever responded.
I got to the point where I just thought
I've tried everything,
I can't fix it,
so I stopped trying so hard,
I was just there for her,
a place of safety.
But then I began to notice small changes,
nothing I could put my finger on,
just something in the air,
a subtle change like the day
something on the wind
whispers to you autumn's coming!
It was like that something inside of me whispered she's getting better!
This last couple of weeks have been so encouraging, she's been
loving our few days by the sea,
loving her new little niece,
loving the Olympics,
loving reading,
and today I finally dared to say to her
"I think you are getting better",
she smiled and agreed,
what a joyful announcement!
I'm sharing my JOY this week over at ~
Meri's Musings
shift happens
My lovely daughter has started to see a little colour return to her life after months,
nearly a year of living in darkness, since her major mental health breakdown occurred.
Charlotte is not out of the woods, she's not ready to focus
on the finer detail of life yet but signs of returning to
normality are appearing.
The days and months were distressing for all of us seeing no change,
watching helplessly as no medicine nor motivational urging made any difference.
Each day was the same just the silence and the shaking......
I repeatedly told her she would get better,
sometimes I thought I was making this statement
as much to convince myself,
she hardly ever responded.
I got to the point where I just thought
I've tried everything,
I can't fix it,
so I stopped trying so hard,
I was just there for her,
a place of safety.
But then I began to notice small changes,
nothing I could put my finger on,
just something in the air,
a subtle change like the day
something on the wind
whispers to you autumn's coming!
It was like that something inside of me whispered she's getting better!
This last couple of weeks have been so encouraging, she's been
loving our few days by the sea,
loving her new little niece,
loving the Olympics,
loving reading,
and today I finally dared to say to her
"I think you are getting better",
she smiled and agreed,
what a joyful announcement!
I'm sharing my JOY this week over at ~
Meri's Musings
Comments
this touched my heart
so painfully beautiful
it is tremendously hard to watch those we love walk through darkness
to feel the helplessness
to feel the darkness creep around us
it takes us to our own dark places and uncertainties
it takes great courage to come along side and be still
fixing is so part of our human reaction
blessings to you all as you continue to walk through this
you are a wonderful mom
to be able to sense the shift
it is everything
it all matters
love and light
HUGE JOY.
Blessings on you both.
QMM
Surrounding you both with continuing love and light.
xoxo
So very happy that your daughter is beginning to feel her way back. I can feel the love the joy and hold it and send it back to you 10 fold.
AND, your beautiful 'illustrations' of your joy...sigh
x...x
i am sitting here holding you both. the mother, the daughter, and each soul fighting their way back to the safe comfort of belonging.
thank you for sharing so poignantly your mothering heart, your daughters flowering, your ever present light.
love to you and to charlotte each of you are bright and exquisite flowers lighting the way for others.