Finding my Bliss

Friday, 20 September 2013

For the Journey ~ Stage #2 ~~~~Difficult Terrain

Intuitive path
a journey to finding self
under harvest moon

As I said at the outset there would be emotions involved on this journey,
that at starting point the terrain was just a sketchy outline but likely we would encounter some emotional landscape, needing inner strength to see it through...

See first post *here*

I wanted the path of the journey to reveal itself to me intuitively,
I felt like I needed to pour my personal emotions into paint at this point,
but how do you paint
anger
frustration
fear?

Looking at the journey document there seemed a natural little place ready mapped out to lay the first drop of raw paint emotion. At the centre there was a stitched outline of a heart shape that I hadn't noticed previously. it popped right out at me...



The most fearful part of a painting journey is always the first splash of colour, it felt right that red paint be used here to express my emotion, along with sharp and swirling lines expressing my conflict and confusion...


These feelings soon melted when I softened the stroke and took to massaging the heart with a lighter touch adding a softer shade, thinking about the message yoga had given me on the previous day...

... about the rising of the full Harvest Moon, the soft silvery light, reflective and calming, inducing peace, radiating around the heart.  We were encouraged to surround ourselves with this  beautiful light.


As I relaxed into the silver light and breathed more easily the feelings seemed to be released from the heart as if through wings of fire, up and out of the painting, leaving only smears of red emotion behind...




The whole painting seemed to take on a swirling cosmic light effect, the next day a friend left me a supportive message, not knowing about this painting part of the journey~>

"When I went into Silence this morning, asking for help, I saw the image of two hands and forearms being held out - as if in offering, inviting me to take the hands and be lifted up..." 

Christine ~ Mysticmeandering




I took this as a message from the universe and decided to draw these very same hands hugging my heart! 
I feel this journey is a collaboration of hearts!  That friend's support is part of the journey, I am grateful for this, I will show my gratitude by including all suggestion and comments in the final 'journey document' ~>~>
to be revealed! x

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8 comments:

Priti.Lisa said...

It is always fascinating for me to see a painting evolve...and the thoughts and feelings behind it. I am glad you shared under the harvest moon, ♥ ♥

Gillena Cox said...

thank you for sharing your journey; have a nice Friday

much love...

wabisabipoet said...

I loved watching how your painting evolved as your heart softened, as you 'massaged' it with lovingkindness. Beautifully done!

Mystic Meandering said...

Wow - love the evolution of your emotional process! The wounding, the nurturing of the heart, and the beginning of healing... It's a beautiful artistic expression of your experience! I love the detailed strokes and markings. It has the feel of transformation.

Am so glad the "embracing hands/arms" was helpful in "nurturing" the heart. :)

Heart Hugs to you Indeed! :)

Marit said...

Thanks for sharing this process and your emotions - it moved me as I am on an emotional journey myself... have a nice weekend dear one!

Monica G. M said...

"I softened the stroke and took to massaging the heart"

that is so beautiful. i love the idea of massaging the heart. the self-other nurturing of that.

to me, a 'successful' painting session is when the emotions release at some level.

fabulous.

Cat said...

beautiful and brave Sue
beautiful and brave

love and light

rebecca said...

dearest sue,
you posted this while i was away and i am just now discovering your gorgeous offering here. stunningly beautiful. i am at once held and lifted up.
your radiant love shines out so generously.
xoxo