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Starting anew, again

 The need to release is here, the time to say, to give vision a voice to honour the now ~>
                    
It is two years since my dreams came to a halt, when my expanding dream container got closed tight, so tight like it was sealed and I hadn't the strength to open it... It is still closed but I see the beauty of it alluring me, it is close to my heart nestled upon the silken threads that are covering a place that yearns to breathe free and easy so as to retrieve something lost, something precious, but constrained. 
A strange thing happened today, someone knocked on my door asking who owned the field behind my home as there was a sheep stranded and bleating with it's head trapped between the barbed wire. I was able to point her in the right direction for the sheep's release I'm glad to say but instantly I, being at a heightened emotional state became overwhelmed by the plight of the sheep and turned it upon myself imagining that I was the sheep painfully trapped by life's circumstances. The woman had mentioned that she couldn't leave the sheep helpless there among the other sheep that were obliviously grazing. Again, this endorsed my awareness of the loneliness we as humans can experience and the seemingly callous oblivion of nearby people just getting on with their lives. As soon as I realized where this chain of thoughts were leading I snatched them away focusing on the one kind person and her compassion for the sheep knowing too well the damage of dwelling in the lower self and reminding myself that all these things happen for lesson learning...

I needed a distraction, so I visited my spiritual home, my intuitive place of unleashing, penning the now, I honoured my vision with voice, it feels good to be here, it has been far too long...
Post Script: The reason I am at a heightened emotional state is that it is two years this week since my love passed whilst my brother in law passed yesterday under the same circumstances...



Comments

Hello Sue! What a beautiful post. And a wonderful metaphor for where you are now, and a wonderful messenger that came to your door to awaken you to your own sense of being trapped in the circumstances of your life... I can totally relate to that feeling for different reasons, of course. But feeling that same feeling of entrapment and not being able to get free. Am sorry to hear that your brother-in-law passed in the same way... Maybe you are able to help his wife not to feel so isolated and alone as you experienced. It is easy to think that other people are oblivious to our plight, our bleating, our situation, and we wonder sometimes why people don't seem to care, just carrying on with their lives while we are still trapped. But they too are just living out their life circumstances the best way they can. Am glad you were able to redirect your thinking and find your intuitive place again...

May your burden be lifted and your Heart sing once again! <3C
Catherine Drea said…
I have been browsing your evocative writing and photography Susan....wow! A beautiful and unique voice....and a positive discovery for me in the world of over commercialised blogging gone mad. So sorry for the grief you are in, but I know too the heightened awareness it brings.....mysterious in so many ways.....
Gotham Girl said…
Thrilled to see your beautiful art and inspiring words!
- said…
Hiya foxy,
Light and dark are piling up on you it seems. Just when you could do with a spell of quiet. So sorry to hear that you have to try and get your head around yet another family loss while you are still grieving.

Any news on the housing front? It would be nice to see you happily settled somewhere pleasant.

jo/alma field

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