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Processing Pain ...



As humans we want to put rhyme and reason into our experience of existence
for we are made thinking and feeling beings, and to think there is no reason, well this is absurd and unreasonable...

But when pain enters the scenario and particularly your own dear one's excruciating pain that will not go away day after day week after week then all  wise words of connection to the Divine are challenged, you are left with an emptiness, confusion and overwhelm...

You may find yourself despising your words of wisdom, even the words of poets and mystics which once soothed now may take on a hollow tone.

I keep clutching at my thoughts in desperation for the reason, they tell me it is all part of the universal unfolding, for lesson learning, my edification.
 I tell you I haven't got it yet! And, I must carry on along the path for I have no choice...



But still I cannot deny the 'awesome' in everyday, the million facets of beauty sparkling out from all directions of heaven and earth, bombarding my senses, shouting out the reason beyond reason, evident in the depth and breadth of love, the gifts galore in creation and kind hearts ~ I am forever grateful. 

Comments

Cat said…
Holding you deeply and tenderly in this your time of darkness....my sister, my friend...for all things there is a purpose...you higher self knows this, as does his...it is ok to question, ok to doubt, ok to be angry and it is necessary to grieve...grief is the reflection of love so deep, it is the light house in the storm, the diamond in the rough, the release of the heart bursting open. Do what you need to do, Love can handle it, Love can take it all, Love listens and knows your pain, Love never leaves....ever

so much Love and Light sent to you and your across the vast lands and oceans that are between us...I know you can feel it

♥&heart;♥
13 May 2014 at 15:48
Mystic Meandering said…
Indeed your words say it well. Sometimes the words and wisdom that once inspired ring hollow - lose their meaning - their comfort in the face of life's unreasonable pain. There is no "sense" to be made of any of it, as you *endure* this. I love that you are honest about your feelings in the face of all this... not trying to sugar coat it. Even trusting "the Divine" becomes a challenge when one feels abandoned... And maybe there is no "reason" - life is just the way it is - and all one can do is put one foot in front of the other... And yet, how sweet that you are still finding solace in the sparkles of love around you... Sending you many love sparkles *~*~*~*~*
13 May 2014 at 16:23
Unknown said…
i feel that suffering is the one arrow that pierces through into the heart, putting every person's faith/beliefs into question.

perhaps it's the greatest spiritual challenge/experience. my own suffering i can accept, but that of loved ones?

what stops me in my tracks is hearing/seeing the ones are experiencing the suffering be more at peace, or more accepting, than us the bystanders. that has to mean something.
14 May 2014 at 12:51
MJ said…

So much truth in your words, my heart aches for you and honors you in your strength. And so much wisdom and love in these comments there isn't much more that I can add, other than sending love, prayers, and peace....
xoxox
15 May 2014 at 14:06
Miss Robyn said…
I may not visit very often.. but you are in my thoughts every single day. xoxo
26 May 2014 at 12:18
Introverted Art said…
oh Sue,Sending you all the positive energy and love in the world. I hope that your wisdom and you heart guide you through this moment…
30 May 2014 at 16:36
rebecca said…
dearest,
holding you close every moment of every day. i am here for you dear sue. perhaps a phone call?
do let me know, i would love to hear your voice.
xoxo
4 June 2014 at 03:08
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