Finding my Bliss

Thursday, 28 February 2013

Don't Blink

What rate ticketh clock?
I blinked and a whole year passed
or, was I dreaming?



Somehow I seemed to have lost a whole year,
it appears what I thought happened last year happened the year before!
My sister who is twelve years my senior warned me about this ~
"wait until you get to my age then time really does fly"!
Of course we'll never be able to confer!

Still, living in the moment can feel like forever, because it is,
I'm trying to make each beautiful moment count!


Sharing with
Haiku my Heart
Recuerda mi Corazon

Monday, 25 February 2013

Intuitive Dream-Board Tutorial

I am the Queen of procrastination!
but today I'm going to change ;~)
I am going to pursue something
I promised myself and you ages ago ~>

A ~  Full Moon Intuitive Dream Board & Tutorial

Why?

Because it is the 'Full Snow Moon' this evening
a perfect time for visioning and creating, a powerful process for securing dreams!


Tutorial here we go ~>

First step collect materials ~>
images, words, colours that speak to you from old magazines, photos, leaflets packaging etc.
*keep your eyes open*

My stash today ~  a variety of magazines,
when I go through them I'm confident
something will speak to me.....

BTW I'm tuning into some therapeutic listening, Sade on Spotify!
'Bring me Home' ~ Live 2011,
oh, and a mug of cocoa....

Next I quickly scan the magazines and rip out the images/words, this stage needs to be swift, just an intuitive recognition of what draws your attention, no need to labour!
The idea is to get the juicy creative energy-flowing and released.
Today the moon energy is strong with me! This is often the time I am most creative !!!!

Now I prepare to get messy, I collect together~>
  • A board, any board, cardboard even, this is not intended to be a work of art but if it turns out to be one apply it something stronger!
  • Different papers, I like to use tissue paper, coloured and patterned, home/hand made.
  • A container of watered down PVA glue + applicator brush.
  • Scissors, bowl of water + sponge for cleaning up.
  • Hair dryer for speeding up the process.
Next I decide on the colour pallet for the tissue background then I get to ripping, randomly applying and layering it onto the board which is first covered with PVA glue. I apply more glue by hand smoothing and rubbing the tissues in the way it wants to go!

There's no need to be precise, just bear in mind two colours placed over each other mingle to give different shades, oh and the colours may run but this does not matter, it all adds to the finished look.  However precious papers need to be strategically placed or saved for later as they may get covered up by your images. When I have completely covered the surface I leave to dry or use the hair-dryer. I'm now taking a lunch break so my Aga will be doing the drying job!

Turning my attention to the images/words I select the ones I want to use cutting or ripping ready for use.  At this stage you may discard some of the images you originally selected, some images/words now begin to speak louder, take note and go with the flow. TRUST

Now's the time to start arranging/applying your chosen images, start with the large more obscure or background images.  Sometimes ripping large pictures into strips adds interest when spaced out, especially strong graphic ones. You might find that you cover some of your initial images, this doesn't matter its the final look that comes about by letting go and going with the flow!


Save the prominent images and words applying them last.  When you are happy with the result allow to dry thoroughly then you may want to enhance further by drawing, writing, stamping or adding heavier items, the sky is the limit!

When I study form the things that have surfaced through this intuitive process reveal themselves to me! They are to do with my intentions for the year namely ~>

To value my time and use it wisely.
To value my home and re-commit to home-making now moving house is disappearing from view!
To continue to honour all life forms as we are all interconnected.
To find rejuvenation from travel.
To find restful ease in my life.

I am going to keep my dream board in a prominent place as a reminder of my dreams and to re-enforce my intentions!  I hope you liked, will be adding further digital enhancements later in the week!


Sunday, 24 February 2013

Breathe Easy

My hospital appointment coincided with yoga practice,
so I was a little reluctant to visit as
I knew it was just to tidy-up the
paper work and to discharge.

However, there was a consolation should I miss yoga!
The 'English Eccentric',
the consultant who was so very charming on my last visit,
and, maybe he would throw some light on another concern
I was holding my breath about?

Having had some re-assurance from
the 'pink cartoon tie' wearing consultant I was off in a jiffy.
It was about 4 minutes to the hour, the lights being with me on the road
and just a few moments later I slipped into the back of the studio unnoticed
joining in with yogic calming breathing......


Tense situations in life tend to make us hold our breath, and then we may only breathe into the top part of the lungs or the chest, this is common, not using the whole of the lungs!  Yoga focuses on fluidity of mind, body and spirit, using the breath to facilitate this. Calm steady breathing using the whole of the lungs to send life giving oxygen to every cell not only rejuvenates the body but also promotes a peaceful and steady state of mind.


In the early days I did not appreciate how vital a part breath work is to yoga, to be honest it was enough for me to just learn the postures, but because the tutor constantly instructed the ins & out breaths I naturally fell into the way of it. Over the years I have come to really appreciate how wonderful this natural function is, I have come to take great delight and rest in the most basic of all human gifts ~ the breath! (Prana)


No wonder 90 year old Rigina Brett in her 42 points ~ Celebration of Growing Older said ~
"Take a deep breath it calms the mind"!


For more enlightening and fascinating facts about the breath please take a moment and visit ~
Leslie Kenton ~ Secrets of the Breath

I will just drop this off to ~
Postcards from Paradise
Recuerda mi Corazon

Thursday, 21 February 2013

Connections

I have a gay friend,
he's one of my yoga buddies. 
After our practice today he gave me a ~>



He told me he missed me at Monday's practice,
this felt so good, this connection is a real  Joy....

Linking with

Sharing the Joy Thursday
Meri's Musings 

Bonnie's Pixel Dust Photo-Art




Wednesday, 20 February 2013

Thinking Out Loud

My love asked me about 
when I meet God
at the judgement throne?
What would I say?
Would I be levelling all the darkness against him?
To which I replied, 

"I would say thank-you, thank-you",

"Life is not always fair, but it is still a gift"

I don't remember his reply, 
maybe he uttered something 
in a hushed voice!

The gist of my reply came from ~>
Regina Brett's 90 Years Celebration of Growing Older ~ 42 points.




Sunday, 17 February 2013

Yoga Gratitude Prayer

Excerpt from my diary 26 January 2013 ~>
This morning I had the most beautiful yoga experience ever.
I determined this day I would go with my own flow,
to trust my inner Susan,
to connect with my breath and
feel my way forward.

Thinking on the Sanskrit word Ahimsa and no self harm,
no pushing myself to make up for lost time
on account of not being well for the last eight weeks,
I engaged my thoughts on gratitude for my renewed strength.
This gratitude pervaded the whole practice
that I felt deeply with each fullness of breath,
each effortless movement as my limbs easily
transitioned through the poses.

As I stretched and relaxed into each posture
spending time, breathing deeply,
an emotion of appreciation and beauty entered
and pervaded my entire Being,
rising steadily throughout until
towards the end of my time on the mat
a crescendo of tears started to flow.
I felt the most restful release.

Tears started to flow, pent up tears from the ordeal of this last few weeks, perhaps months or even years! Who knows?  But it seemed so natural and beautiful to let the tears flow, cleansing my whole Being.  With a grateful bow I finished my practice as I had started.

In all the years I have practised yoga in several forms I have never experienced anything like this, I felt totally in tune with every part of my Self.  I'm not sure whether or not I would be able to repeat this experience again, but one thing is for sure it will reside in me forever!

This I know, if I hadn't started my yoga practice years ago I would never have experienced this awesome feeling! Speaking with my yoga teacher afterwards we came to the conclusion it was not dissimilar to the state of bliss that the gurus experience through meditation practice! I can honestly say that I did ~>
find my bliss on this occasion!

In the early days when I joined yoga at my gym I had no idea what benefits were in store, I never knew how these gentle restorative movements would improve my life on many levels.  I didn't even have the proper gear then, I went in some old non-stretchy pants that pulled tight across my huge tummy when we performed spinal rocking warm-up ( lovely knees to chest rocking motion that is so good for massaging the spine/back).  Over the weeks and months my tummy started to shrink and it felt like my whole torso was becoming elongated and my limbs very much more flexible.   I had been having problems for a long time cleaning the house at low levels, a painful stiffness around the pelvic area when kneeling, this completely disappeared within the first month!

I figured, now I'm getting into my senior years, to prevent immobility I need to keep up my gentle yoga practice, and so I have! :~)  and will be passing on some of the benefits through my posts! :~)
Keep a look out :~)

As previously stated I am not an instructor, I will not enumerate poses, there is enough information in books, videos and the internet for that. However, I would advise anyone thinking of taking up yoga to join a reputable teacher in group practice or one to one tuition for safety, like any other form of exercise there are risks!

Linking with
Postcards from Paradise
Recuerda mi Corazon



Monday, 11 February 2013

Snow Blanket

Someone laid a snow blanket out here this cold morning, 
it beckoned me beneath for solace and succour.
So, with hot-water bottle in hand I slid 
into the softness thinking about love, 
possibilities and new moons!

A snow blanket offers the mind
a lair for protection and security,
to slip into the solitude,
to enter winter's wrap
enveloped in this
comfort.

I'm biding my time here, in my lair.
My day will come, my season, 
and the snow blanket, it will melt, 
and evaporate into 
the ether.

And I will be gone into the summer sun!


Sunday, 10 February 2013

Awakening ~ A Brush with Vulnerability

There is nothing more sobering and haunting
than coming across a deceased person's blog,
especially if the post caption reads ~

Life is TOO Short ....!

Now I'm looking back in time
with this painful reminder ~
as from early December to late January,
I experienced being trapped in some fearful sickly fog!
Those days now quickly becoming a blur.

I was loosing weight alarmingly, feeling nauseous with
loss of energy, unable to perform the simplest task.
Loss of coordination and blurry vision.
Restless nights waking with sudden pain and anxiety,
accompanied by hot and cold sweats,
were just a few of the symptoms.

At the doctor's orders an emergency
ambulance transported me to hospital
resulting in appointments for scary tests along
with the excruciating wait of 21 days for biopsy results.
Each of those 60 days illness seemed to last at least
60 hours long!

Fast becoming a distant memory ~

Excerpt from diary ~
When the test results came back I spent the whole evening going through in my mind the last nine weeks and trying to decipher the meaning of it all, not that it should have any meaning, but what I could deduce from this very STRANGE experience. 'I don't want it to evaporate into the ether, it is part of my story, I want to remember it even though it was very frightening and painful, both physically and mentally!

The fog began to lift ~
It became clear to me that this was more than just another illness I've had during my lifetime.  It was significant, a full stop in my life, a pausing point to take account of things.  This period of time was allowing me to view things from a different perspective, soberly.  During my illness my vulnerability and dependence on others, mainly my husband allowed me to appreciate how so interdependent we all are, that no one is truly independent.  This whole drama has been very humbling bringing me really low, but I am now seeing the worth and lessons of humility, it has led me to think about how I can personally deal more compassionately with others ~>
.
to Trust more,
to share more,
to give more,
to look for new ways of contributing my gifts + resources, both locally and here globally on-line,
.
also
.
to gift myself more, more time Being, more time being absorbed in nature.

.

The day before I got my 'all clear' test results I had started feeling better,
more than I had in nearly two months ~
.
Excerpt from diary ~
.'For the first time in a long time I feel alive, me!  This evening I walked out into the cool air, my steps felt more secure even on the slippery ice, more secure than I'd felt in awhile. I gazed towards the cottage over the road, the warm glow in the window made me feel good and connected, living as part of three dwellings straggling our little brook. As I turned to go back indoors a wintry breeze brushed sharply against my cheeks bearing witness, I'm alive, I feel like me, and I'm so grateful!'

The following days my strength picked up and suddenly as though a bright light had been switched on in the dark everything appeared so vividly beautiful, I had the most wonderful experiences including ~>

My Beautiful Day ~ Yoga Gratitude Prayer - Next Sunday

BTW Feeling vulnerable is closely linked with loss of control, discussed in today's DailyOM   
'Letting the Curves Take You' an article worth reading plus the discussion, 
particularly Jack Garrow's 'A Tandem Ride With God'! 


Thursday, 7 February 2013

Joy Break

I had a five minute JOY break today, 
here's what I came up with ~>


My JOY might be a little bit scrambled at times,
I tend to be a bit dyslexic you know,
but the meaning is still the same
which ever way you look at it.
Really JOY is always plain to
see if you stand back
and observe! 

Posting to 

Sharing the Joy Thursday


Tuesday, 5 February 2013

Weighted Down

Sometimes I feel weighted down,
like I'm attached to a millstone,
that's attached to my home,
which sits by a,
millrace.
A millrace,
sounds idyllic,
it is,
except ~>

They have announced they are going to build the high speed bullet train-line
within throwing distance of my home, which we were about to put on the market!!!

We finally decided to sell our property after postponing for a few years because
of other tangles only to find at the last minute the tangles have tightened!!!






Sunday, 3 February 2013

From My Heart to Yours

I have been practising yoga for about six years,
my practice has been consistent realizing early on
the incredible value of these ancient holistic movements.
I cannot extol the benefits enough!

I came to yoga at a difficult phase in my life,
when my adult daughter's serious mental health disorder surfaced.
We became her sole carers.  Having had mental health issues of my own,
mainly anxiety and depressive states, I needed something to help me cope.
I'd heard how yoga exercise, (as I thought of it then) could help.
Help it did in the most wonderful and beautiful ways!

I am aware that yoga is more mainstream in some parts of the globe than others,
here in the UK yoga is gaining ground at speed.
I am going to be posting about my Yoga & Meditation journey,
how it has been instrumental in both mine and my daughter's well being
in the hope that it might encourage others.

After six years I'm the first to admit I'm not the most knowledgeable,
skilled or elegant practising yogi (a person who practises yoga),
but what I know I would like to pass on ~>
What I know is over time, not only has my body changed
but my whole Being has blossomed!
I'm not claiming yoga and meditation to be a miracle cure all,
but in a time of increased stress it certainly helps.

I'm adding new main categories to store my posts
for easy access to anyone with special interest ~>

  •  Yoga & Meditation Journey 
  •  Mental Health/Bi-Polar Disorder

My daughter and I would like to use this space to tell our story in the hope of
enlightening others and encouraging anyone who has been or is affected!

Next Sundays 

  • My Awakening  
  • My Beautiful Day ~ Yoga Gratitude Prayer

I'm sending my news ~>
Linking with my circle of friends 
via
Rebecca



Saturday, 2 February 2013

All Change

I'm introducing more colour into my life
as signified by my new header,
it has been grey for to~o~o long!

Grey has a place I know,
quite restful actually,
a place to slow down
and just Be,
to contemplate,
gain some perspective.












































Several natural awakenings have taken place through my 'ordeal',
the time has come for change, some small changes,
some tall, that is a 'tall order' for me,
requiring a dash of brave commitment!

I want to keep it simple, but yet meaningful,
not bogged down with too much detail, the balance of simplicity and interest is my aim!

Sundays I'm going to be talking about Yoga and my 'awakening', hope you will pop by!

On the subject of simplicity and minimalism I'm ~>

Linking with

Bonnie and other photo artists at ~>
Pixel Dust Photo-Art


Friday, 1 February 2013

Sixth Sense

They say dogs have a sixth sense ,
whilst ill this one hardly left my side,
not only is he one in my circle of close friends 
 but he's my therapist too!
and comes highly recommended ~> 

PS whilst I'm doing baby pics I thought I'd do pets too, I'm lightening up a little ;~)x